Sunday, 24 August 2014

Health versus Pleasure

Two words; different in pronunciation and meaning but people need to make a big decision in believing these two magical words. Different choices result in different outputs. People will surely choose the word PLEASURE because it contributes to our happiness in our life. A short pleasure.

Aku ni pandai cakap je, aku pon macam tu jugak tapi dulula. Dulu aku memang tak hiraukan pasal kesihatan aku terutamnya dari segi berat badan. Memang banyak faktor yang menyumbang kepada penambahan berat badan aku dulu iaitu dari segi:



1) Pemakanan - pemakanan yang tak seimbang. dah yelahkan, duk rumah makan sedap-sedap sebab mak suka masak. pagi masak tibai nasi, tengahari tibai nasi, petang tibai nasi, malam nak tidur pon tibai nasi jugak lagi. Dah tu macam mana tak kedempol?? 



2) Genetik - memang tak nafikan memang keturunan sebelah ayah aku ni semuanya besar-besar, makan berselera jadi secara tak langsung aku pon turut sama makan berlebihan dan berat berlebihan. hasilnya, badan aku ni macam getah yang di pam-pam banyak spare tyre kiri kanan. 

Since I was a child, I didn't think what to eat and when to eat. I always eat and eat whenever I feel like I want to. My weight rose gradually day by day, month by month and year by year. When I was in year 4 - year 6, my weight was over 100kg. Then in high school, it kept growing more and more. It never crossed my mind to think about my diet and weight. 




Sampailah sampai hari perkahwinan sis aku yang keduaa. A day before her wedding, we went to market and kat situ aku nampaklah satu body weight scale kat satu corner tepi tangga market tu. Aku pon terasa nak naik nak timbanglah. Bila aku naik je, nombor tu terus pusing dari 0kg - 98kg. at the age of 20, that number  somehow merisaukan aku. Then satu keputusan yang drastik yang tak pernah aku buat telah aku buat dengan penuh harapan dan tekad yang menggunung. 

No Turning Back

My ambitions? My childhood dreams? I'm not getting or reaching any of that. Even though I'm in this field now but it was not my option nor my choice to be here. Yes, you are right! I get involved in this field just for the sake of my so called future and of course; MONEY. People can go blind over money even though it's not much. I jumped into this field in order to get my job secured and safe. 

Believe me or not, that was all in the past; the days i didn't open my heart and soul for this job, the days i regret the most for my immature self. As the days past fast, i can really feel what it's like to a teacher. Starting from School Based Experience (SBE) until this second phase of Practicum, I'm not embarrass nor upset anymore about this job. Coming to school and watching the pupils really lights up my spirit even more to be a good teacher. There are lots of things to gain in this job other than money and secured job. 

haaaa...kat sini ada lah sekeping gambar aku menjadi ibu peri masa lecturer observation hari tu...memang malu sebenarnya nak pakai masa dalam kelas sebab bebudak mesti gelakkan aku tapi nak buat camne..nak ngajar diorang kenalah pakai jugak, guru kenalah modal dulu barulah diorang pon tak malu nak pakai costumes ni semua nanti..

My Future, InshaAllah.

Ambition? Occupation? They are all fall under the same thing. It is only a word to describe our future; 10, 20, 30 or even 40 years ahead. What are we going to be? How's our life going to be? 

I believe everyone have their own ambition but how many people achieve their childhood dreams? I used to be a child who was always confused with his life, with his future, with his dream, with his ambition? I used to have ambitions and dreams. Why? Because no one ever asked my ambition when I was in primary school. 

As I can remember, I always sit at the last seat in my classroom. I know it is cliche but every teacher in schools do this then and now. "Stand up. Tell me your name & your background & your ambition. What do you planned to be in the future." One by one, they stand up & say their name, their family background & their ambition proudly. Sadly, when it comes to my turn, the bell rang. The class dismissed. People would be upset if they experience that but not me. I was glad. Why? It is because I did not have a dream then. I did not know about my ambition. I was not sure. 


Sambut salamku mari berkenalan.

Assalamualaikum pembuka bicara, ditujukan kepada blogger yang beragama Muslim. Bagi non-muslim salam sejahtera. hahaha~~



Sebagai first entry, aku nak perkenalkan diri dululah ye. Nama diberi Muhammad Anuar Bin Razali yang berasal dari negeri kepok gotel iaitu Terengganu. Haishh, sesungguhnya aku memang tak tahu nak tulis apa sebab ni lah first time aku create satu blog. Dulu ada terlintas jugak nak tulis2 blog mamcam ni tapi selalunya sekerat jalan sebab takde komitmen plus aku bukan reti sangat nak main benda2 macam ni, memang jakunkan? Tapi takpe, aku nak cuba dulu, nanti dah lama2 mungkin datanglah kepandaian dan expertise dalam menulis blog ni tapi sejujurnya aku tak pasti sampai bila aku akan menulis blog sebab truthfully this is not my thingy. hahah~~